mokh, its tearing up my heart

today really is a heartbreaking day. i can feel my hands shaking. me and mokh didnt break up. tp i found out hes in a relationship with someone else. i tried to hide the emotions, but the tears refused to stay. YES I CRIED. dah lah esok exam. couldnt stay focus in my revision mokh. please dont be mean. i'm begging. i ni useless sgt ke? i tunggu u text. i patut dah agak lama dah. tapi i tried not to be negative. i ingat u busy. i ingat you nak focus study. tapi tak. mokh, kenapa ni? to be honest, i miss you and now im crying. i admit, i main-main. i tak layan you sebaiknya. you mesti menyampah dgn i kan? i keep on blaming myself everytime you tak reply my text. i mengharap sgt drpd you. i tak pernah setia macam ni. you are the first guy yang i setia. i bangga bgtahu semua org i ada bf. i senyum everytime you text. my friends geram everytime i contact you sebab dorg kata i ni over. the last time kita jumpa, u were okay. tp muka u mcm suram sikit. kenapa tak terus terang je kat i time tu? i bagi u semua kot. i TRUST you. i dah ckp byk kali dah,

I LOVE YOU.

 kenapa main dgn perasaan i? you tahu kan i syg u? sebab itulah u taknak org tahu ye? sebab tulah u tak add i kat fb ye? sebab tulah u tak bg i tgk phone u ye? i obsessed sgt? ye i obsessed. sbb i syg you. its killing me. :'(