cari i sebab lonely ke?

i tak tahu nak cakap apa dekat u lah mokh. u call je mlm tu, i rasa awkward. kita dah tak mcm dulu mokh. u tahu tu kan. u dah lain. and u buat i lain jugak. i sendiri rasa i dah berubah. sebab u. tak apalah, ada hikmahnya. kenapa u cari i blk? u lagi nak mainkan perasaan i kan? im just trying to get over it. i tahu i takkan dpt u. u pun dah reject i mentah2. i feel awful. i nak u tahu tu. jgn lah ajaki keluar. u nak tgk i menangis ke? i dah promise myself i taknak nangis depan u. i taknak. im stronger than u think. sorry mokh, u broke my heart. im hurt. :'(

IM STRONGER THAN EVER.

im getting used to it.

alhamdulillah. i managed to calm myself. less crying. less thinking of u. less depression. lifes good for the moment.  mokh, im not ignoring you, cause i hate you. im trying to keep a distance. u know, like what u did to me before. i want u to know how it feels. but i dont think it affects u much. ur happy with ur life aite? i understand. tak semua benda kita nak, kita dapat. and tak semua org yg kita sayang, akan syg kita selama-lamanya. itu semua tipu je. okay mokh, i paham. :(

acting normal.

happy birthday. 'friend'

i wished him today. didnt get good response. hmm. mestila dia tgh gayut dgn gf. :'( okay that hurts more when i say it. sabar mariam, sabar. happy birthday mokh. dulu i pernah promise myself, i nak nyanyi depan u. i wanna se u smile. and make today the best day ever. tapi what to do. i tried. i hope org yg u syg tu, dah nyanyi utk u. u kan cakap i tak sayang u sebanyak dia syg u. okay. i paham. i yg salah. :'( iloveyou mokh. :'(

how are you?

you've changed.

mokh. can i ask you something. why did u call? why did u contact me back? do you really want me back? u rasa bersalah ke? mokh. u takkan pernah nak jawab kan? mokh, please please please answer. u cakap u nak i. tapi u pergi dari i. mokh please lah. ITS KILLING ME. tapi cara u cakap dengan i, langsung mcm u tak rasa bersalah. jangan mainkan perasaan i boleh? satu je merayu. tolong? i nangis malam tu. as always.